Tomorrow

I am returning to work tomorrow. This time its for REAL.

Somehow I feel ...... dun quite know how to describe my feelings. Sad is not the word. Lost/ guilty perhaps? I look at Ethan and I feel apolegetic - for 'abandoning' him? I know, all my friends say that just coz I need to work, doesn't make me a bad mom. So many moms are doing it, its just life etc....but I can't help it, like I'm not giving him the best.

I know I'll miss him, ALOT. I know I need to learn to let go and to trust.
I just hope its worth it.